How to start
Where do I even begin? I have zero idea.
There's so much to unpack from all these years of just perceiving life, living it, and not necessarily documenting it.
While I do love reading, I kinda feel bad that I didn't write about what I lived through. Not that I've lived a long while. Rather, I'd have wanted to see how my thinking or the way I processed things changed over the years, and from that, read and learn and hopefully become a better version of myself.
Now, I really wonder why I never cared to document everything? My High School Field trips? birthdays? Special Sights that I had visited the first time, those sorts of things, I never really found the need to document. The problem (for me at least) is that I was leaning towards no documentation at all. I never thought that years later (hindsight is 20/20). I would pine, not really regret, but pine after a shard, or a trace of those memories, before it fades. Not as a statement to those who will come after us that I was here, more of looking back at what I've been through, good or bad, and saying thanks life for everything.
I guess, it was because I never really cared about those memories in the first place: family, friends, loves, etc. i cared at the moment, but I fear i didn't care enough to crystallize or sketch the memory not only in my mind, but in items.
It's tough to 'force' myself to write, so I'll cut it off here for now.